07 Jan 2024
Caterpillar man U asked me if I am capable to take care of everything since I am the elder one, when I asked angrily what do you mean, you said it's about decision making. I am not sure if you really meant that . And "my circle" like you mentioned is definitely different and I had put myself in it for a long time to not know the difference of who is real and who is not. I wish I was bound to Coimbatore in that sense, I wish I was a lot less independent. And I don't really enjoy all this knowledge and independence, it comes with a cost. I can tell you this, i think I am not good with decision making, I really don't know, i struggle with decisions because I always have handled all my problems by myself and never really had anyone to guide me in any capacity. It has been just my own decisions good or bad. I am kinda slow to decide because i overthink and analyse too much. May be that's why you called it "fear" , may be it is because I was also betrayed ...