8 Mar 2021

I miss you

4.56am

After 2 months of roaming I am at home, but couldn't fall asleep. I was feeling quite good and relaxed though there were ups and downs. Starry skies sunsets and coconut trees at my friend's house in the village made my heart so light that I remembered you less and the hugs I had from your from our memory was none.

It's late, couldn't sleep and somehow as always I found my way to you in my thoughts and I ended up accepting to myself how much I liked you and how come you are still my most favourite person in the world. Dint you or did you know that I always knew you would leave me, all that I wished was to have a good few years with you in our home somewhere and have a kid together? I would have happily let you go then. I would have, even if you can't believe my words.

You were scared of me isn't ? That I would hold you responsible if you did any of it and not let you be you? Is that how much you understood me? I talked about you today, kind of a rewind on 2018, I never understood what made you run away? Anyways, you left as if it was so urgent to live your life with the next person so soon. May be it's what given you peace of mind. 

I know you had been sick and was in and out of hospitals for sometime and you are at home with your parents. I hope you get well soon, and yeah I go to temples again, you are always in my prayers whenever I go. Don't worry this phase will pass and you will be better soon. And yea, did I mention? I miss you.