May 27 2022

I think you are on your own..

It has taken me 3.5 years to let go of the need to follow you around. Not sure if it was because you finally felt the pain of being in love involuntarily and suprised me by confessing the same. You still had to say i would wish such curse for you and make me feel guilty for another thing which you assumed about me in your head for reason known only to you. 

But i guess it did what it has to, break my need to follow you, though i managed to take care of myself and let go of my love for you. I guess that was the final hook connecting us, i had let go of it, not because it's been years, not because I need to move on, not because you are in pain, i am not entirely sure why, but randomly yesterday i cut all the few strings attached between us, the ones even you were not aware of.

It felt pointless to keep learning about your whereabouts, i think this will be our final breakup and i feel you will find your ground because I felt you finally realised what love is and what it could do to you, i sincerely hope you will learn to appreciate people more and not just use them.

I never really planned on this, i used to but i was never able to let go, now i don't feel the need to hold on. It's over. I don't really feel sad or happy or even relieved like when you ran away, i feel nothing and empty. I think i am ok with it.