Jan 25 2021

4am

Life, ways to live.

Lost in thoughts of what I am doing in life and how my involvement in dating apps, marriage proposals, job search, not doing anything at the moment, going through a really bad episode of depression and meaninglessness. I couldn't resist but think of these 5 important aspects of life which I believe makes me self sufficient and control in me being mindful of the choices I had to make in life irrespective of the social pressures life throws at me.

Art

When I Paint and write, I feel lost in it, I am so present that when I am done with it, it gives me a sense of accomplishment. I can name of lot of art forms, but all that I want to say is, when you create something and put it out there in the world, the effect it has on you is something special. Every human's need at some level is to create, I strongly believe that.

Music

Be it playing an instrument or just listening to the tunes, it calms you, excites you, takes you to places in your head like reading. Even reading is a form of music according to me, your own mind voice trying to convey. It comforts you, that's what I felt many a times.

Giving back 

Being able to chose and give it back to society or even to your family and friends. Emotionally financially or with your time is the least of what we are bound to do. Being there, it makes a lot of difference to someone who is in a need. 

Pleasure

Sex, companionship, someone ready to listen to how your day was, share the time and space with you and your being able to enjoy it is something which doesn't happen with everyone you get to live with. Loneliness is a curse when you don't have a right companion in life.

Farming

Learning to grow what you eat is a necessity, it's a lesson everyone should be aware of and to considered basic. Wonder how much it will make a difference when we are asked to do that for real and abide by it? 

Like 5 elements of earth, these are 5 elements of my being which I relate to the most. I try to live by this, I fail again and again, but I always come back to it not because I don't have a choice but because I would want to only come back here rather than forgetting all this.