April 6 2020

Cheating

Yes, cheating. I don't know in which world I used to live. Sometimes I go to that world nonchalantly when it comes to cheating. I was so conditioned with thoughts and ideas that I believed or may be I still do that it's not wrong. And it's just physical love. I still can't wrap my head around this particular topic. I may have opinions and my stance on a million things in life, but on this I have no fucking idea what I think or believe in or what I should believe in. 

Not the whole world, not everyone, but majority of the people think that it's the breaking point in any relationship. I agree when it comes to non sexual ways of cheating, but when its just sexual and all you did was obey your hormones and had sex with someone. How to call it cheating unless someone goes into your mind to find out, if it was just hormones or you had feelings for them ? Even if you had feelings for them, is it not ok to be physical with someone else ? Should it be called cheating just because you hid it? Or is it cheating because you are not supposed to show physical love with anyone else when you are with someone ? And how do you determine where to draw the line when it comes to physical love? You having intercourse and when genitals are involved it makes it wrong ? Can everything else be given green card ? 

I have million questions. Not sure if it was because of the thoughts I was conditioned with. But generally people lose it when they learn their partner had been intimate with someone else . And it's been accepted and given so much importance. Why I am not able to see it ? What is that makes me feel it's not the worst to break the relationship?  Am I being influenced by my past and not see what everyone else sees ? 

I just can't decide. I don't know if I believe in cheating when it comes to sex. I think I drifted off to the parallel world again.