27 Dec 2022

Strange dreams in brown..

I was dreaming..

It came to a moment where it has become a half dream, because my thoughts were catching up so fast that i am still trying to be on the dream but trying to make best of a sad little dream which is not very new in it's pattern..

It was making me realise i was chasing and running as usual and it was awful..

Lot of pain..

A whole lot of crying..

And suddenly i think of colours, as if my life has no colors, even if i wish for one i wouldnt get one anyway..

Even by misluck or by mistake i wouldn't get one..

Thoughts running too fast, i still don't realise if it's a dream or just random thoughts..

Then i can see it turn yellow in the most beautiful way, slowly but with full of colors with no relavance to what i was dreaming, just yellow, all over, where ever i could see..

I was wondering what if i got brown, very well knowing the hatred towards the same..

Completely over the fact that i was still seeing yellow in my head..

Now almost fully awake, i thought, how wonderful it is to get any color..

Color of the trunk of a tree, color of my skin, how wonderful it would be if i got brown..

Brown dint look as ugly as i thought it would..