10 Sep 2022

You and me

You like the version of me in Instagram who is so close and dear to me even though she is public for many eyes i know how much she hides behind those words and photographs who came out of her shell who created it to live a life without you 

You like my pictures which i had taken in the best and worst moments of life without you

You like the person who writes and describes small moments of her life and you appreciate that i write so beautifully, even those were without you

You like the person who earns a lot these days and have managed to become a golden duck as per your words without you

You like the person who have become more calm, funnier, kinder and you keep calling me a kind soul, even this was without you

I wonder what you would say when you read my paragraphs which are mostly about you describing my life without you

You even loved that i loved you so much and i don't think it has changed, may be i cover it with care and affection and standing beside you in your worst days, but my life and love and care as always stands on its own because my life is and was always without you in it

I don't know if you really understand what love is or what it is capable of. I don't think you do, but i hope you do one day when you are out of this sorrow. I really hope and pray you get better and find your peace.

I am not sure how long i will stay in your life because i am so used to my life without you that i don't think i would need you anymore to live my love or life