June 17 2022

We can't meet. We can't msg. We can't talk. But everyone else(ok, quite a few🙄) wants to and i cant see any of these boys bcos my mind is completely occupied by you. How long can I re watch your videos and msg to my notes app thinking it's you?

Why do you think i will be a problem to pursue what u want to in your life. There is a possibility that i might make it easier if not better. You said u believe in intuition, so do I. I wouldn't have told my heart to you if i dint really feel it and i also felt u might feel the same way. I wasn't wrong was i? U not responding is to avoid me not bcos u dint feel anything for me? My heart beats faster when i have to tell myself that we might not end up together, forget ending up together, we might not even meet again. I feel the ache, i cry and i have felt this before and how stuck up this is . You dint let me in to your life to see how it would it be. I would have moved to stay near you so i could meet you. You don't even have to ask me Chinthu, i will do everything possible to make your dreams come true. If what you want is for me stay away, i would do that like i am trying so hard now. Don't ask me why, bcos i have no answer. Love is a trip most times, and i love being in love, i can go as long as and as much i want to, i don't even need your presence, i have my mind and you are there automatically. You make me write, i imagine a lot, i hug you almost every day, i imagine how you would kiss me, i wonder who would wake up first and what will we say to eachother before sleeping. I am so so so much in love Chinthu. It's so overwhelmingly trippy sometimes.