June 12 2022

You say 24 hours is not enough for you..

I might not be able to understand when you say that 24 hours is not enough for you. You might have a lot of things in a day and have too many commitments to follow through that you feel you won't be able to give any to me. I agree, you don't , it took you 5 months to break your silence and respond to me, that too bco of my desparate attempt to message you. You were not supposed to see that, i was planning to unsend bcos for few moments i wanted my words to reach in some way. How stupid, i know. I promised i won't contact you but you right swiped and ignored me again, i had to. 

Your 24 hours, i don't want all of it for me. You do whatever you want to. Travel whenever it's required. But everyday you will have to sleep right? If not all the time but you will have a place which you call home right? You brush twice a day right? You will have your breakfast and take a shower at home right? You have to spend time on all of this right? And it's everyday right? 

Sleep next to me C, let me see you every morning. I will talk to you when you take a shower and when you have Breakfast. Can you do that? I will see you as much as I want when you sleep. I sleep late most days, hug me when you sleep. We will have a lot of time like this. Why do you think i cant stay. Why wouldn't I? I thought you dint like me C. Why do you have to be silent? You know me, i will leave now to Alleppey if you ask me to go see you. Why wouldn't I want to be next to you? It's already been a year, don't keep postponing. I can't wait to be in your arms. I wish I could hug you now. 

Oh i forgot, you make me smile. And i have seen your face too many times now