Mar 18 2022

Never ! Self reminder 

Even if I say i want to get back with S at any time in my life . I should never let myself, bcos he was a complete asshole the entire time. He was emotionally, physically and in all possible ways cheated on me knowingly and never really tried to work on our relationship and mindlessly talked shit about me with strangers and was proud that he miss no one and doesn't believe in love. Never had any love or affection towards me even when he remotely did he neither accepted with himself nor tried to acknowledge it with me ever. Never valued me for who i was.

Yes, you should be able to be yourself but when you disrespect the one you are in a relationship with what's the point? Isnt that betrayal? To speak bad and more importantly think bad about the one you are with, if you were so concerned why didn't you run away years ago? Why do you have to wait until someone else came along to fill the place where I was? You are pure selfish and was never really capable of loving anyone except you. 

As much as I don't want to say or acknowledge all this, it's more important for me to remember how you thought of me, how you treated me and how much you resented me and never believed anything when i said i really loved you, i will never dare to give you another chance to sabotage me voluntarily. Because it's definitely not worth it. Remember that