Feb 14 2022
Wooow, my Valentine's day 2022
You S have basically married a substance addict . And i came to know that you are taking care of her and in hospital. Woow. Will see how long you are sticking with her and help her because i have never seen you be there for anyone else except you.
You C, it's been a month since I confessed my love for you. You gave me nothing but silence as reply. But i just couldn't let go of you yet, but today i chose to let go of you for good. I cut all the possible ties with you virtually. Kind of an end to further conversations. Looks like we were meant to have just 4 conversation in this lifetime. Not regretting anything though. Happy to have known you a little and taking them with me for lifetime and you will be remembered.
You M, what is all this man? You came into my life 6 months ago, made me feel like i deserve the love which is too pure and caring which i never felt with anyone else, then you yourself left me saying you want to be there for someone who loves you. It was heart breaking to learn that and accept it. Then again few days ago you contacted me again, dint say much, i knew you were engaged, though I so much wanted to ask i couldn't bring myself bcos i knew you wouldn't have bad intentions. Then i learnt today that you got married in the day you messaged me. Why did you? I just really hope you are ok. Please accept what ever you have chosen with whole heart and move on. I wish you nothing but peace and happiness for the heart you have.
And You N, what's happening dude? Am I in or am I out? You are hot and cold. I told you everything i could. I couldn't figure you out. I am so far away from love and hope. I feel so broken to even ask you whats happening.
I honestly don't know what's happening in my life. I have nothing but good intentions with anyone. All the men i know are so good too. None of them is even half bad as the world portrays. But it's so fucked up that none of them chose me even once but they just liked me for God knows why reason.
It's Feb 14 2022, as much as I hate to admit, i can't deny that I miss being in love even after doing all of these to myself and allowing different men to play with my heart and soul. Can we please end it this year? I don't have it in me to take it. I am broken, like really broken, so irrevocably broken to repair anytime soon, i just have my love with me and this never giving up blind hope that i will find my person. But does it all have to happen on the same day every few years?