Jan 10 2022

I know how stupid this sounds. I fucking don't know you but i still miss you every single morning. Not just at night, every bloody morning I wake up rushing to see your face. And I can't really accept the fact that i can't even call you and say that I miss you and probably don't want to stay away from you. How ridiculous is to be in love.

You have robbed me of my safe place too. I had this constant comforting place where I would go and hug and still not ready to admit who or what it is to anyone except me,. You have come in there too, all that I want is to just hug you now. How ? And why should I? This is my safe secret place where i should be able to be vulnerable and feel lost. You can't come in here. You have no reason to take this too. This is mine and you can't take it from me. Why do I miss you so much and why do I want to hug you instead of my safe place ? It is just making me so incapable of doing anything. How can I miss someone who was never mine and why would I want to go to you C? 

What is all this.