Dec 23 2021

All day every day since I talked to you again

I just couldn't stop smiling .. Literally, i am showing all my teeth as I type this..

I am so happy that I am a little scared to lose you..

All that I do is day dream all possible scenarios with you which may or may not happen but I am so engrossed in it that I don't care about the reality, i am just fully smitten by you and your words so far..

Three years ago, the same days as i am going through now was completely different, i was devastated by what was happening and for the last 2 years, i always dreaded December end and it hurt so much no matter how engaged I kept myself or who ever I met. I made sure I was occupied still I just couldn't be happier from heart. There was a pain and I missed what I feel now and there was a big void when I saw all my friends with their family and children.

Finally this year also has come, i am not sure how and why, from the moment I saw your message saying I was the one who forgot you, i couldn't contain my wish to meet you. I never wanted to forget you, i thought you were too good for me and we might not hit it off. But knowing and hearing you say you like me, you are attracted to me and insisting that I am important to you made my heart go weak. I just can't stop thinking about you C since Monday evening. Can't wait to hear you, see you and be with you. 

Will write after I meet you. I really really hope we stick together and want us to be in eachother's life.