Dec 25 2021

I think I have fallen in love with you

It's been 6 days since we spoke and 1 day since I met you for 1 hour. I was so anxious the entire day yesterday overthinking every little thing you told when I met you. I dint want to leave you . I had no clue and still don't know if you even like me back. 

Today I was happy for no reason, yes Bangalore and December cold weather does it's magic but after feeling good the entire day and being happy inspite of not receiving any msg from you, i thought I was ok if you don't talk to me further. 

But as soon as i had a chance to be by myself and when I said love you to my friend who was having a bad day to make her feel better, something made me feel like, yes this is why you were feeling happy the entire day, you are in Love. I had this overwhelming feeling and something in my heart now strongly recognises that I have fallen in love with you inspite of this not panning out the way I wish. You were in my prayers today and I felt like going to the temple. And I remembered you. I have never had anyone I had barely known to come in my mind when I pray. 

But I am still happy inspite of not expressing my love for you today or ever. I have no reason why I fell in love with you. I cried the day I spoke to you too, i was feeling overwhelmed then too, i felt relieved that as if someone was saying "isn't this what you wanted, here have it". I saw you sing almost everyday post that before I slept. I felt like you sung it for me. When ever you smiled in that video, I smiled too.I love you and I am glad I don't have the urge to jump and tell you and scare you off. It's ok, anyways this love is mine forever and it is very special to me because i consider this to be my best part of life. If I get a chance to tell you I would, if not you will always hold a very special place in my heart for making me feel this way. It hurts that you might not feel the same, but it's ok I get to feel it and i really do want to love you as much as I can . Love you C.