July 23 2021

Another random random day

10.40am thought but written at 12am at night

I am in a new job, attending a meeting from my home in Coimbatore and I glance upon my own picture which was taken in 9th class along with my brother in our school uniform.

I was in 9th class, so I must be 13/14, I will turn 33 in few months from now which I dread the most. Reason, I am still single and I don't have a companion yet. I was wondering what I would have changed or been careful about if i had known at 13. What would I tell to my teenage version? I was very innocent, my life revolved around my studies, maintaining 2nd rank, friends, my extended family and a boy who was running behind me all the time in name of love. 

I was serious then I would believe people, though I am more chilled these days, but deep down I am still the same girl who appreciates and long and miss what I had. Friends, extended family and a boy who will run behind me in the name of love. Yea, i am good at work and I get paid good.

If I could meet her and tell her few things, these would be the ones I would want her to know. Because, I would really believe it. May be my life would be a little better because of it ? 

First thing to burst is, girl you can't stand the hospital scene, you will never be ok with the blood and needles and the smell. So stop forcing yourself to think you want to be a doctor. And you will not enjoy too much being an IT software developer too. It sucks big time, but it does give you a lot of independence and travels. So may be. But I would really want you to explore your options in Agriculture and Architecture. What you will realise in a year or if you had once asked yourself what you really wanted to become, you would have been aware of it with little effort. I know you don't have your android phone. And I still believe teaching is the most satisfying job I can think of. 

Secondly, yes this guy who is running behind you is handsome, but you are right about him . He wouldn't have suited your life path. And neither does the one you end up in college. If not during College, ditch him post yout Europe trip. So stupid of you to think this guy is gonna marry you and even if he went through it, you would have suffered every day. I see it now, he is in kovaipudur, not doing anything and still contemplates on where to live and what to shoot. Oh, I almost forgot, you are way beautiful than you think you are, I know you don't care about being dusky, but you have scored some really hot dates, so ditch him when he makes you feel like ending your own life, yes he would make you feel that, so Chuck him out before he leaves and date man. Seriously. So many guys who are good and value you are right there. Your ex is an asshole even if you never agree. I know and I still can't bring myself to accept it. He hurt you. 

Thirdly and most importantly, what ever you do in life and who ever you be with or not, start investing girl, not saving, we got it wrong from the day you make money. You have lost 10 years of investing, which could have made s huge impact on your asset. But you will eventually realise how important it is.

Lots and lots of hugs to you. Don't be under confident, you become one of the sensible person in life or atleast that's what I believe about myself.