May 13 2021

What's life 

12.40am

I am randomly messaging someone on love, marriage, commitment . How men are. What astrological signs are. And suddenly I wonder whats life, what do I want to do with it, if someone asks me how to live it, what do I have to say ? What's my perception of it? What do I tell me kids or grandkids?

This is what I think of life at this point. I am 32 single, not married or divorced also not in an active relationship. I am just meeting people and during pandemic its more to do with messaging. So what's life like now, nothing is great or nothing is worse. I am ok, good mostly . I still fail to do what I plan in my head but I try and tell myself to do them inspite of an uneventful day. Oh yes, I forgot, I am unemployed by choice.

So this is my version of life. Like yourself, because as much as it is narcissistic or ambitious or normal as it may sound to you, it's gonna help you in the long run. I always have liked myself so it's a no brainer to me.

Next I would say no matter how much you earn or what work you do, people also exaggerate about loving what you do, I couldn't so I wouldn't make it a big deal and it's not, be financially independent enough to have time for yourself to do what little of what you like to be in any art form or in sports or anything that you are inclinded to. 

Read books, fall in love many times with different people, you might end up spending life with the one or may not it's ok too. Don't have regrets, do it with your heart and what makes sense to you so you don't have to blame anyone else or wonder what if you pursued it. Be your own friend, cheerleader and critique. Life flows until you breathe.