Apr 15 2021

Time is immaterial, I don't see the time these days. Don't know if it's day or night for I am unstable and broken in every possible way these days. Job, VISA, Love, Self confidence and everything expect hope is at an all time low and I am not able to hold the ground and stand stable. Confused and hurt most of the time. Out of everything that's happening, the worst is to vacate my home and go back to my parents and live. Not that I hate them but I have to give up on my one last stable thing in my life because of the circumstances I had put myself in. Not sure if my instincts and going by how I feel has put me in this position. But either way, I have nothing more to lose. 

I am aware that people will go through this similar to me, and again and again the one thing which I miss and long and hope for the most is to have a person in your life to say that everything is going to be ok and just listen to talk to me about this even if they have nothing to tell me. I have done that in the past, I was told that my solutions and talks brings nothing to them and it's waste but I will still continue to call and ask and listen because I would want that at the day for myself if I am in any such situation. 

May be things will get better on its own or it may not. But be it happiness or more troubles all that I still hope is to have that somebody whom you can count on.