15 Mar 2021

Dreams dreams don't go away..

4.55am

I used to get strange dreams, wandering in an alternate world where people don't have heads and in some I don't see any faces though I see heads and in some I am so short I only hear them and see thier bottoms. In addition to the usual ones where I fall off from a height, being chased and sexual ones. In most of the dreams I would be pursuing something with all I had in me to do whatever it was or was just lost in it with no clue. They were nice, though weird and not comprehensible, I liked them, its me wandering somewhere apart from the world I live in and breathe. 

But these days though I still get the usual ones and the really intense sexual encounters with random people. I miss my weirdos. The new addition is my uncontrollable urge and desire to see you leave your wife and suffer and or stranded alone so I would laugh so hard and tell her that you told me you know him but I knew him better because I have seen him run away every single time there was a crisis. I know it's so sick to wish for these, I still dream of them and sometimes when I extremely hurt I think of it. But I get to see these in my dreams but what's surprising is though I get to a point where I see them in the verge of breaking up, they always patch up and I end up being hurt again. Yeah, it's so fucked up, even in my bloody dreams I get hurt.

I could use some of you weirdo dreams, take me far away to every other universe out there and lose me there. Enough of him, I am so tired and done with him, I want to write about you instead, dreams dreams my weirdo dreams come back again.