26 Jan 2021

7.45am near perur temple

Marriage

Never in a million years I thought I would have to meet someone though I very clearly said no to the proposal.

How much ever i try to not let this not being married bother me, its testing my confidence multifold in all possible ways. Why, even me who is aware of my being let this bother me so much? Sleepless nights, endless pain of loneliness, search of possible guys I could end up with, I understand that, I am ok to deal with them.

But the pressure from family, making me wear gold chain on this particular day, waking up really early to meet someone I have absolutely zero interest, being so fake and projecting themselves as someone who they really are not.

The funny part is we reached early and they are yet to come. And they are the ones to set a time like this in perur temple, I am so glad I got my periods that I dint have to do it inside the temple. That's the only relief I got in this whole fiasco.