Nov 27 2020

10.30pm

Troubled soul

Yes, I have come to terms with the fact that I am a troubled soul. I have always been, I believe I will always be no matter what happens around me. Most days, most of my life, I am all I got for myself. Unlike you, I don't get people who will do anything for me, forget anything for me, I wouldn't have anyone who will genuinely care for my being.

I wouldn't know what it feels like or if I will get to feel it someday, but the constant suffering of being staring into nothingness and being empty and void irrespective of having the thoughts to do something is always present as much as I breathe. 

No matter what I do or what I try or what I don't try, I for certain is a troubled soul for eternity and beyond.