June 5 2020

Me..

I have thought about this particular behaviour and mindset of mine which has become more and more persistent over time. And it's little surprising because I dint think I am like this. I had a different perspective about myself.

I don't get angry anymore, yes I get hurt, though the intensity of it has reduced over time because I don't allow myself to get too disturbed over anything or anyone. But I dint realise I have stopped getting angry anymore. Particularly when it comes to people, like close relationships or budding romantic relationships. Not sure how it would be in love, since I don't have one right now. But yea, no matter what the person has done to hurt me, I feel empathetic towards me and the other person so I don't let myself go ahead and be angry about it. I have come to a state when it's not mutual, I have learn to see their point of view and move on if I have to.

Is it ok? Does it happen with age or is it because I am evolving? Sometimes it bothers me that I don't get angry even when the other person has hurt me beyond the threshold, why should I ignore or take it ? Shouldn't I be doing something so the other person atleast knows that I was hurt by them? I used to explain myself a lot earlier, now I dont do it unless its absolutely necessary. But I am more at peace though my job, love life, family life are not at a great place or where I want it to be.