Dec 2 2019

Triggers

I always had this thought on the back of my mind about triggers. The ones which would make you to lose your shit and spin to the worst mental state. And I am specifically talking about the ones where you get to choose if you wanna face it or ignore it.

What would most people want to do about it? What do they decide ? How do they decide?

I have asked myself too, I have had instances where I had to chose if I want to deal with it or brush it off. In most cases, I would tell myself to face it. Not sure why. But I have constantly told myself to face it and I have done it too. I believe i want to know how bad it can affect me after all that I have been through. Also I kinda hope that it makes me a stronger person. I too definitely don't want to put myself in a worst state or hurt myself through this process, am aware of these. But still somewhere I feel it makes me become less vulnerable to the situations which could break me. And I go easy on me, I allow myself to feel broken or bad or negative if I had to. Because that's how you can deal with them. You can't just force positivity to get out of these triggers. You gotta feel the pain and learn to come out of it too.

I may not be right, may be it would damage people if they do what I do. But it works for me. I have faced my worst fears, or the ones I thought were the worst. I am still in one piece, have not spiralled to the negative hole. I am still ok after almost a year. But there are bigger ones, which I still want to stay away from. What do you think? What would you choose ? Would you face it or ignore it ?