Dec 18 2019

Pain ? Not always ?

I always thought I write because of pain, the pain the void and the emptiness. I thought those were the only reasons why I would write. It's not that I am not proud of it, I dint believe that I could write when I feel good or excited or when I feel absolutely normal !

So, today I feel absolutely normal and a little happy because I seem to be smiling all night. Reason being, I have lots of people to talk to these days. Silly or important, doesn't matter so much, because I don't feel lonely or bad though I still live alone. 

Also all these dates and meeting guys are fun and exciting. It makes me realize that it's good to have such things in life. I wish I had done it a little earlier. But it's not too late too, this one specifically is being so sweet and makes me feel excited and nervous. He takes me back to college days at 31. I wish it really goes somewhere good. Though I often had to push myself to come out of my own world and interact more, I think it's worth doing that.