Nov 7 2019

You again? I don't know. I can't seem to stop writing about you, but that's ok..

I can't explain people why I fell for you though you never showed me any signs of love or affection.

You resonate with me in many levels. You would know what I will like, I feel that strongly. And the worst quality in me, being straight forward and hurt people, you can never do that. U wouldn't do that with me, somehow I feel that's what I need too. Though I would never know if u liked me or loved me, you not telling me either this or that makes things better.

It's not because you are from the mountains, that you love sunsets, that you keep telling me about your childhood, that you love trains and the ocean, that you magically appear and talk for few minutes and hang me in the magic land which I long for, that you made me adopt a pet, that this list will only grow, or is it because of all these? 

Or does it matter, should I explain people why? Or should I supress myself from not feeling these? How can I? What's the point. It's all in my head. Its ok isn't it ? 

PS : I wrote this some time ago and had no intention to share with anyone, I was reading it today bcos u msged me yesterday. Though I know you will have your own things in life and may be someone special too. But still, I felt like sharing this. U made me realize that I can like someone too and it's not wrong. I don't want you to respond to it and I am perfectly fine even if you want to ignore this. And it's been a year since everything went downhill for me, and you are one of the good part of this year which made things lighter. I am glad that I got to know you.