Oct 9 2019

I am happy, after a really really long time.  For the second time in this year, the reason is you..

I have had horrible days, I have had horrible dates which has ruined me..

But these 2 days with you, every minute of it, I felt so good. I felt more alive. I was so fucking nervous most of the time and wanted to kiss you half the time, but it was something I haven't really felt in a really really long time. I felt more of myself, though it's just the second time we are meeting.

All we did was watch a movie, walk and eat. And we talked about the same too most of the time. But it was wonderful, I loved it when u made me laugh and when you explain things to me without judging. 

I never been cared for in a really really long time, u might be being yourself or you really like me or just being nice, but you have no idea how much it means to me. To be cared for. And not just in words, but from the things you do for me. It's more meaningful to me than everything else.

I wish this goes somewhere so that we will be in touch as long as we are here. Or not, it's fine too. Memories are miracles, you will be staying with me until I breathe.